Good morning! So... I allowed myself to do absolutely nothing but sleep early last night on the sofa... 7pm? Moving to the bed at some point and I slept well! I received a text from my boss to drive to the office this morning and be ready to help distribute holiday gifts to clients today.... so drive all day. Needed to rest up!
I tried to reach out to M yesterday but he didn't take my call. Mad at me I think for calling him a jerk on social media. That's fine. I do miss him a little. I wonder if he thinks of me.
He WAS a jerk and knows it. I could have said much worse. And I didn't use his name.
I used social media as a therapeutic tool when I was down, something I encourage others to do as well.
I always have.
The day that I reached out on Facebook I was disappointed in an argument had the night before. I'd had trouble sleeping, and was facing a day on the road, alone in my car. It's really challenging to sit with emotions all day sometimes. Especially in my line of work. In my car.
I'd been blown off Saturday morning and night, Sunday morning and night... I learned he thought I'd been on a date with another man during that time. And he'd gone out with someone else. Taken one to a wedding he was supposed to take me to, even. I was so disappointed! ☹️
I created a program once I might revive someday called Recovering with Technology. It's meant for individuals with mental health challenges like mine and is a self-help study of how different types of technology can be used to help, and hurt, one's recovery journey. I presented it to Member of Friends 4 Recovery Whole Health Center in an 8-week workshop and I feel it was a success.
What I did is a perfect example. Last week I reached out and heard from so many people positive messages, online and, in person. Because it turns out many read my posts but don't respond online. I had four different people speak to me about my post in the community! But, the consequence, M blocked me on Facebook. Pros and cons. If he and I are meant to truly remain friends we don't have to be connected on Facebook to do so. We'll see what the future holds.
I really should revive my program. It's interesting.
I'm just trying to keep my eye on the prize now and stop getting distracted by life. I want my first draft of my book completed by Christmas, which is Monday! Focus MiMi!
What more does my book need? Some helpful resources, national hotlines, a list of famous people with mental health challenges, a little positive twist to my relationship with my brother. It sounds a little negative as is. A little negative twist to relationship with someone else. Find balance! A mention of the benefits of telling personal stories, a WRAP plan as an appendix? Mention of what my son says he learned most from me over the years. Photos. The list of human rights shared as an appendix from WRAP workshops, maybe referenced in the section about sex?
** the final publication should include an audio version for those who are having trouble reading, right out of an episode of psychosis. Poor people! They need all the help they can get!
I'll jump in the shower soon and plan on being out of here by 7?
Meds/vitamins. Dogs. Coffee. News. Blog. Maybe a little attention to my book before hitting the road.
Have an amazing day!
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