February 10, 2025 ~ Monday

I’m up and feel ok. Not energetic, but with enough energy to get myself started.

I wrote in my journal last night hoping it would help me have a good morning. I had a late nap yesterday so I allowed myself to stay up a little later. Not intentionally, but I didn’t watch the clock and put myself to bed early like I did for a bit.

I skipped watching the Super Bowl with my friends last night. It’s just such a drive now to their place… and the game was going to go late. And, I didn’t want to be around the alcohol.

Today is Gabby’s birthday. I’m so happy about where our relationship is right now. One thing she said not long ago, it just is what it is. It’s an illness. I have to manage it in the same way she had to manage her physical challenges, and can’t play with Rowan in the way she would like to. It was very sweet, the conversation. Word for word isn’t coming to me.

I am going to go to Chesterfield County Mental Health this week and go through intake, start therapy again.

My kids all came over yesterday and met Meg, Wes and Tanner. Kalob helped me to get my TV stand out of my car. Gabby and Junior came first, and we visited in my room with toys, waiting on Kalob and Rowan. It was nice.

I’m really excited. Wes told me this morning that he’s going out of town soon to his brother’s. So… I’ll hopefully get Rowan overnight. ❤️🥰🥰

I need to get in the shower and get ready for work. Have to start interviewing promoters this week. Something I’ve never done! Fingers crossed.

Meds/vitamins. Riley and Bear. Water. Coffee (instead of soda). I’m trying to kick my soda habit.

I’m grateful for a little break from my depression. Reading my journal from years past last night, reminded me it’s not a new struggle.

Have an amazing day!