February 13, 2025 ~ Thursday

Thursday before a show weekend so… the day off work. Woke up feeling pretty good.

Yesterday, a day of sorting through resumes and having video interviews at work. It’s something new to me so it’s good. Last night, just veg’d in bed. Too tired to read or visit with Meg, but, not depressed. Watched some Big Bang and went to bed early.

Gave Meg her b-day present this morning! So starting the day pretty well, actually. ❤️

Today I’m going to see DW, who helped me get my current job. I think we’ll have lunch. This afternoon I’m going to take chili to the kids. This evening, dinner with Ch. I wish he were more of a stable person, but I think he really likes me. We can continue to be friends.

Tomorrow, work a little in the morning then off to Hampton to set up my booth for the weekend show. May do a little overdue clothes and shoe shopping too, since it’s payday.

I’m excited a bit that I’ve had book ideas recently. This is something I’ve been dearly missing! Next, map out some formats… overview of contents.

I’m a little excited that I haven’t been obsessing over the decision not to drink as well. I realized the other day… nothing is worth risking damaging my relationship with Kalob. Why did it take so long to see this? My mind was tricking me.

The mom I’ve been for the last 25 years, until recently, has been a woman who put her son first. What changed? Why? I’m back!

I really didn’t believe alcohol caused episodes. But… if it really did contribute in any way to making me less than 100% for my family/friends/employer… then I should stay away. If it could make me hurt others, I shouldn’t do it. Right now, for now… I’ve battled depression too much. I need to not do it. Period.

Meds/vitamins. Riley. Water. Coffee.

I’m sooooo grateful for Meg and this home she opened up to us. So close to my family. I’m grateful Riley is healthy and I may be able to get him to the vet for his checkup, overdue. I’m grateful for my job and the slow turnaround it is making possible for me. I’m grateful for my kids continued love and support.

Have an amazing day!